At Raquels. She is doing laundry and cleaning her room. Wow do I need to do that. So today was kind of stupid. :) Was like forty minutes late to work. Got off at 12 pssha. Lame face. Oh my. Raquels friend Andy came into the store tonight. He was so nice. I always forget about him. He's so cute and nice. Never meet guys quite like that they are always gangster faggots. haha. Last night Raquel had an epiphany that so kindly shared with me. Basically. We are. Audrey Hepburn in the flesh of Reno. :) Call us gold diggers and party hoes that's how we roll. Just ask coke-or. He'll tell you. I mean he's the one who wanted to get a hotel suite just to see Raquel that she just happened to mention. And I managed to get us in to the humble adobe. I mean. People. This is Golightly status. I think I need bust out my pearls and really look the part. Haha In other news. I am a desperate ho. Just ask David. Alycias brother. First night back in Reno and I get a courtesy booty call. Go me. Eh. I think I'm going to turn off my male receptors and call it a day. Haha I'm not dating ANYONE until they meet all my requirements. Looks like I'll be single for a while. But dating is not synonomous with shagging. Count that in cause Adrian created a monster. Ha. Anywaysss. Work sucks. Jason is home. It's good to have him around. I like not being totally alone in the house it's nice. :) Anddd what else? Got my grades in. Totally pissed off. I got a B+ in journalism. WHAT THE FUCK IS THAT SHIT? I aced those essays and shit everytime!!!! But oh no. I got the +. Like ohhhh. I just know I totally was like at 89% and didn't get the A I know I deserved. Or did I? That's the question! Anyways.. got an A in antrho and an A in english. Waiting on ballet and math grades. Hopefully passed both. :) Blah blah blah what a stupid useless post. Bahahaha.

I cannot find my pay check.

Got it on Friday.
So I'm going to retrace my steps since friday to hopefully find have a breakthrough.

Got it on fri opened it in my car called my mom upset beacuse I didn't think it was correct. Got home and went to my moms room to talk to her about it. Ended up being correct. Went into the kitchen I think I ate some cornbeef. Yeah I did. Then I remember it being on the kitchen counter. I don't remember taking it with me when I left. I left and went with Raquel we drove around for a bit before finally deciding to go to her sisters house to drink. Was at Sharons. Got really drunk. Went home. Went to the kitchen counter to erase the text I sent to Jason. Don't remember seeing it on the counter. But I was drunk. Next I went to bed. Threw up. Went to sleep. Woke up the next day puttered around the house a bit. Took a shower. Jason came over with some friends. I cleaned the kitchen don't remember seeing it then either. Went to work. Came home don't remember seeing it then either. Went out with Raquel drove around and around. Came home. Watched a movie. Went to bed. Woke up today and did not have it. Looked for an hour and a half. No check.

Now freaking out.
Let's see. If I don't remember seeing it when I came home from Sharons. I was drunk but. I mean that must mean something? Which means it might have gotten moved before then. It might have gotten dropped into the garbage and I think there was a new garbage yesterday when I woke up.

Fuck. I think either way this ends I'll have to go to work and get a new check. Which is sooo bad because that means it's like 6 days til Christmas and I'm without money and I don't know how long it will take a new check to get here. Fuckkkkkkkkk.

I really really really hope that it's somewhere in this house. I'm going to look again.

Raquel is a dick. Haha she beat me. My breakfast wasn't ready fast enough so she beat meee. No not really. But I did end up with a split lip ahaha. Yeah so today has been totally useless. I'm contemplating if I really want to shower or not. Like I don't want to get my hair wet at allll. In other news Jason comes home tonight. Yaaaaaaaaaay. Hopefully all goes wellz with that. And in other other news hella hystericalness last night. Parited at the humble adobe house from last year (a hella nice house we always wondered what it looked like on this inside) and also a frat boy house across the street from UNR that we always also wondered what it looked like on this inside. Met a nice frat boy named Austin. Kinda dug him. So funny with the Sherlock pipes last night haha. Anyways. More on this later for now I need to clean my house. Ah. I don't want to work today at allll... D:< Holy handjob batman I need to do laundry. Also the picture of the day reminds me of last night and Evan Williams. haha

Wow so I totally went completely mad today.

I woke up pretty late in the day and then had to drive to UNR to bust Raquel outta a parking spot she got stuck in. Ended up getting unstuck before I got there so we went to the sandwich shop instead. Then I went to her house and fiddled around on the computer and hung out then finally went home to start my essay. Wow. Yeah with two hours to finish it I went totally insane.

First I had to retype seven pages and revise at the same time because I couldn't find my flash drive. This took FOREVER and it's probably all incorrect because oh hey hey guess what typed it quickly and without rereading it. Then had to bust out some lame ass ending that I made up and eventually had to cite a completely fictional interview. Then had to retype my MLA works cited page and my mouse stopped working. So after loosing my shit I get out to the car with 18 minutes to make it to the university, print, finish my works cited page and get it to the English buidling before five.

Luckily I emailed it before five so that's not too horrible because my money was too low to print right away so I had to run downstairs and start all over and add money to my card. Then finally made it to the building and some guy gave me shit because it was ten after five. So he took the paper but made me write it was ten after.

But during this I experienced some really intense fucking moments of stress. I thought I was going to...please excuse the vulgarity of this but I thought I was going to shit myself or pee myself or violently explode from the chest out. God I've never been that stressed out in such a small amount of time. Fucking a. I can't believe I didn't die on the spot. I was so worked up. I was like shaking trying to type. I was so worried I wouldn't finish or make it in time.

In the end my essay is kinda shitty and I expect a lower grade but hopefully not too low so I don't get my A.
My lesson is not to everrr put something that big which requires actual effort and thought off til the last minute again.......EVER.

Wheew. Then I fucked around and got pretty to go out but ended up hanging at Sharons house and everyone plucked their eyebrows and shit talked boys. Just go home. I'm cold. Brr. I have a dentist appointment in the morning. Whoo. Not. Tomorrow I'm cleaning and fucking getting things together. Everything fell apart while I was in school so it's time to fix it all up. I think I might actually paint. But I'm soooo making Raquel help me.

Also I need to writeeee. I need to fucking write. Wow. Like badly. Badly badly badly. I think Wednesday when everything is clean and beautiful I will write. All day. Without interruptions all day fucking long. This means I will need a play list and I will need clean pajamas as well as a full pack of cigarettes. I am so looking forward to it. Tomorrow is going to be great I will make it so.

So yeah for now I think I'm just going to pop in a movie and go to bed. I'm knackered.
Christttt.

:)

Oh: note to Alicia. Since learning of that website you mentioned I'm like always thinking about going on livejournal just to post a pretty picture that sums up my day. Haha I really appreciate it cause I never seem to keep the motivation to continue journaling but now I have one.

Quicky here:

Took my anthropology final missed one question
Feeling semi confident about my math final
Need to revise essay for tomorrow before 5
Finish math homework due today
And I'm officially DONE DONE DONE with my first semester of college. Hurrah.

I work tonight. I can't remember if its 5 or 5:30 though. Suppose I should call but I don't want to if Cheyne is there. Ugh after his little saving my ass comment last night I'm not exactly happy with him or myself and so boo. It's freezing. I'm quite sure my car will not budge from it's parking spot or rather makeshift igloo.

I really need to clean the house. I think that's what I'll do tomorrow.

Barely eaten today I'm so hungry I just woke up late and there's nothing in the house to eat because I need to go grocery shopping. Now that break is here I'll actually have time for all this stuff. I mean we haven't even any ramen. That's the state of our pantry...ramenless.

Also quite excited to get back to reading. There have been few books this semester I've read. Looking forward to it. :)

Spent the night setting up the christmas tree and watching Holiday Inn. :) Lovely.



Thanks Alicia for the tip on the picture site. :)

Day 01 → Your favourite song
Day 02 → Your favourite movie
Day 03 → Your favourite television programme
Day 04 → Your favourite book
Day 05 → Your favourite quote
Day 06 → Whatever tickles your fancy
Day 07 → A photo that makes you happy
Day 08 → A photo that makes you angry/sad
Day 09 → A photo you took
Day 10 → A photo of you taken over ten years ago
Day 11 → A photo of you taken recently
Day 12 → Whatever tickles your fancy
Day 13 → A fictional book
Day 14 → A non-fictional book
Day 15 → A fanfic
Day 16 → A song that makes you cry (or nearly)
Day 17 → An art piece (painting, drawing, sculpture, etc.)
Day 18 → Whatever tickles your fancy
Day 19 → A talent of yours
Day 20 → A hobbie of yours
Day 21 → A recipe
Day 22 → A website
Day 23 → A YouTube video
Day 24 → Whatever tickles your fancy
Day 25 → Your day, in great detail
Day 26 → Your week, in great detail
Day 27 → This month, in great detail
Day 28 → This year, in great detail
Day 29 → Hopes, dreams and plans for the next 365 days
Day 30 → Whatever tickles your fancy




This picture is from my AACT classes. It makes me sad because that was such a fun creative time. It was totally unique and I met lots of new people and had quality time with my good friend. It was really an interesting and rewarding experience. I am so glad I did it and it makes me sad because I miss it and I'm not sure I'll get anything like it again.





This picture also makes me sad. Here I am at Amanda's grandparents ranch petting the horse. His name eludes me now. But this was such a fun though unexpected spring break. It makes me sad because I miss Amanda and I really loved my life at that time. It makes me sad because I love road trips and this is the last one to date. This is also the day I found a frog and threatened Amanda with it, the time I threw a slug into the pond to see if they swam and upon realizing they don't removed it! Also the day Amanda freaked out because she thought she heard a baby bear call and ran off as we were taking a hike along the railroad tracks. It was such a good time and I miss Amanda even though she was a ho this past weekend.




And yet another picture that makes me sad. This is my brother when he still lived in Steve and Jeris house WAY back in the day. This was such a weird time for us as a family. We were broken and confused and isolated from each other. All that was familiar had been taken away. Jason really went crazy and he caused a lot of trouble around this time. There were moments like these where things were still happy and fun but it was rare. It also makes me really morose because he is away and I don't see him and hardly talk to him on the phone. I really miss my brother and we have entered the possible stage where separation is finally the solid aspect of our relationship. It's the end of an era, the era clutterd with all it's problems and confusions and fights, but the end nonetheless. D: I miss my bro.

And that's that.

Some sad pictures but I'm feeling strong right now. Mostly because I went for a two mile run today and it always gives me strength and confidence.
My day was interesting. Kind of uneventful. Went to english got my draft back. Def needs to be redone. Like hardcore revision. I'm going to go for a totally different angle. Then I skipped out on anthro and went home to eat. I did manage to talk myself out of McDonalds (even though we talked about it in class). We learned about the relationship of humans and animals and death today from the Omnivores Dilemma. Anyways I went home and made a healthy breakfast. Then puttered around for a bit. Then I texted Adrian to see how I was feeling talking to him again. I then left to work out. Some creepster hit on me.
The duration of my workout was mainly texting Adrian who was in class and being on the edge of breaking up. I think I mostly leveled with him and he...did that defense thing where he isn't an ass but doesn't want me to know I was hurting him by saying things like "if that's what you want ok." I know deep down he was saying these things to distance himself from my breaking upness and to show as little angst. In the end we figured it out and I realized...I do like him. A lot. I like him. I can try harder and stop being such a little bitch about our relationship and being all afraid and hot headed. So we ended up not breaking up and he finally let me in. Our conversation turned much more light as it was agreed the like is mutual and he isn't totally disconnected from me and doesn't care either way. He is invested. He even apologized for being an ass sometimes. I felt so much better. Then we texted seriously all day, which is a first for us in a long time because I've had this tension hanging over my head and tried avoiding it and more specifically him.

We are going to go on a fancy date soon and I'm going to get dressed up to the nines.
We are going to Christmas shop too. :) I look forward to both.
I finally get to see him cold-soreless on Thursday and that should be a bit of a fuck-fest. I'm pretty excited. I think to surprise him I'm going to go get the ectasy condoms we've talked about. Maybe buy a new bra.

I'm happy with my decision to be mature and talk it out with him rather than dump him explanationless.
I'm happy we are still together because I do like him, spending time with him, he's an amazing kisser, and all the things I thought bothered me (well most of them anyways) are actually now that I'm a little clearer in the head amiable and I like them. I just need to stop pushing him away.

So. Tomorrow I think I'm going to run again. Yeah two days in a row. God it just feels so good.
For right now I'm going to shower and give myself a little spa action (nothing too fancy) and a good shave is in order. I don't work til Friday and that is an amazing feeling. Haha.

In other news. I ran into Mrs. Milsap. She has cancer. D: D: D: But she is beating it. I really hope so that lady really helped me through my Mrs. Betz is a bitch days. Also in other news I barely accomplished any homework today. But I did grocery shop and clean up a bit and did some laundry so I'm not totally unproductive. In bad news I had del taco for dinner (oops) haha. And I ate a bunch tonight. I was hungry. Also I really missed Jason today. Like hardcore. Hope when he comes back he's not a dick.

Need to take my final pen for the day and get to bed so I can wake up around 10 to go running.

Day 01 → Your favourite song
Day 02 → Your favourite movie
Day 03 → Your favourite television programme
Day 04 → Your favourite book
Day 05 → Your favourite quote
Day 06 → Whatever tickles your fancy
Day 07 → A photo that makes you happy
Day 08 → A photo that makes you angry/sad
Day 09 → A photo you took
Day 10 → A photo of you taken over ten years ago
Day 11 → A photo of you taken recently
Day 12 → Whatever tickles your fancy
Day 13 → A fictional book
Day 14 → A non-fictional book
Day 15 → A fanfic
Day 16 → A song that makes you cry (or nearly)
Day 17 → An art piece (painting, drawing, sculpture, etc.)
Day 18 → Whatever tickles your fancy
Day 19 → A talent of yours
Day 20 → A hobbie of yours
Day 21 → A recipe
Day 22 → A website
Day 23 → A YouTube video
Day 24 → Whatever tickles your fancy
Day 25 → Your day, in great detail
Day 26 → Your week, in great detail
Day 27 → This month, in great detail
Day 28 → This year, in great detail
Day 29 → Hopes, dreams and plans for the next 365 days
Day 30 → Whatever tickles your fancy

So this picture makes me happy because...well it seems like this is what I want when I'm older. A cat, a nice well taken care of home, and a sliver of sunshine to live inside (not physically like inside as opposed to outside more metaphorically). This picture sums up a lot and in a lot of ways it doesn't. What's inside of the room? Where is it? Who does it belong to? Is it big? Small? Is it a one bedroom? These kind of questions are mine to answer but the picture I think, still sums up what I want for my future.









This picture was of me and Amanda pressing our faces on Sam's car as Maja took a picture on the epic and wonderfully famous THE SUNDAY where we destroyed Xavier's car with silly string and shaving cream. :)







And this last picture was the big camping trip I took with many friends and my brother. I was so glad he came. I loved that he was included in it. He was a hit too. Everyone loves Jason he knows how to make things fun. He was lord of the dance during our fireside charades. It was a great camping trip.

suck.

lets all just stop pretending.

just got out of the hospital with amanda. her septis is gone but she might have swine flu? yikes. she feels like shit. i helped her shower and detangle some of her hair. i had to wear this ridiculous suit.

in other news: i boo booed bad at work. i totally did not fill out or call in the right daily sales for three consecutive days. and larry this big boss man was there tonight when i figured it out. fuck. but otherwise work is fine.

in other other news: at the knowledge center to work on homework. pssh.

it appears:

math chapter 1 due tomorrow (going to do it after journalism before class)
journalism quiz 5 due wednesday (going to do it tomorrow me thinks)
english abstract and journals and class discussion due tuesday (tomorrow again. fuck i have so much shit to do.

and yeah. :0

uh. let's see let's see. i think i might actually just call it a night tonight and head home and get a good night sleep.

tomrorow the plan is to wake up around 9 and go to school to accomplish some stuff before ballet.

and yeah. ;0